"I Sing the Body Optimistic"
It’s been three weeks
without a panic attack.
We hold hands
in the botanical garden. The truck
with the confederate flag
bumper sticker screeches
to a reluctant stop at the red
after I zoom through the yellow.
I am learning
for the sake of learning,
and growing
out of spite. My dad teaches
me how to put oil in my car
over FaceTime and I stop
drinking coffee.
The sun comes out.
Life constantly surprises
me with how beautiful
it can be when you
aren’t looking. There’s still so much
to do. My voice shakes
but I use it anyway.
You give the spring new colors,
and we slow dance
down by the creek,
where nobody
but the squirrels can see us.
I put a new photo of you
in my wallet and I don’t
cry when I call
my parents anymore.
The sun comes out.
We go out to lunch, happy,
hopeful: I make a
mental note of the moment.
I take a snapshot with clear eyes.
I remember everything.